Monday, June 11, 2007

whale bellys



Just sitting and heard a Decemberist's song
I have never heard kind of like the words..


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The film was a bust, but we stayed to the ending Hair all a mussed but your clothes didn't look so bad And back on the street, the rain was descending In cold dirty sheets, so under the awning we sat And then you hailed yourself a yellow cab And I sat for a time by the valets in line And I read what you wrote on the card Above a cowboy you drew a big talk balloon saying "try not to take it so hard" but there's this nagging suspicion that won't leave me alone tonight its just that everything I try to do, nothing seems to turn out right We laid on our backs and stared at the ceiling Messed with your slacks, but ended up just holding your hand The rain will remain, the tv was telling a drip of the drain as your legs lifted brilliantly bent and fall to resting on the ottoman So we turned off the tube and we crawled to your room leaving discarded clothes in our wake and we both had some fun, though I twice bit my tongue and it lasted too long for my taste and there's this nagging suspicion that won't leave me alone tonight its just that everything I try to do, nothing seems to turn out right and there's this nagging suspicion that won't leave me alone tonight its just that everything I try to do, nothing seems to turn out right A wink and a wave and your off to your family's I sit and watch as the taxis lights distantly fade I guess I always thought it'd end this way

Tonight at the hash run I am standing at the start and standing next to me is a girl
I knew from along time....Elaine Davis..aka Swamp Bitch. Things stay the same and people
remain the same and then you look back at yourself and wonder how much change you
as a person reflected back.

I remembered Kevin's phone number from 11 years ago.

No Mt. Adams ,this week.....nothing to say here. I remember when I could do things on the fly but these days anything takes a bit of time ....So if I am going to climb that mountain again I'll have to magically....get the universe in alignment...

Why do people write stories about being in the belly of a whale.
Really.

Oregon State made it back to the College World Series.. Really how cool is that...Hydro Licks told me the news ..mid run tonight. Talk about perfect timing.

Mt Adams is always hiding.

whats the deal with the Mariners.



Friday, May 25, 2007

Just Say WTF



Some crazy ass quote i made today resonates so darn large with me and ironically I cant remember it...so I'll take some from random famous quotes and make them reflect how I feel.

Who are we? We find that we live on an insignificant planet of a humdrum star lost in a galaxy tucked away in some forgotten corner of a universe in which there are far more galaxies than people.


substituting Compassion

" Lust has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it is what you are expecting to give, Which is everything. Thats is If you say WTF"

substituting Respect

" Respect has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it is what you are expecting to give, Which is everything. Thats is If you say WTF"

Really at random, If you feel a certain way there is a certain..WTF...moment that requires you to say WTF.... Really just go for it...Sounds too simple...

Kind of like running a marathon, I remember waking up the morning of my first marathon and think what an I doing but somewhere back a few months ago I took out the check book and the entry form and said WTF.

Never happened with sky diving.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Simple Observations

I am enjoying running more these days. Running lots of miles and one of these days just for the f*ck of it I need to get faster. It was great to run today with an old friend...I have run every day for more than a month now. Rocky Butte was a pleasure... The entire run is about going up that hill. Simply that, the rest is just talking and listening... It rains for all of 30 minutes today and of course it was on Rocky Butte.

Its all good right now....Mostly... The other half of the equation. I am going to have to solve that...But thats long division...There is usually a remainder. But that's the beauty of the beast.. just round up...and ask for the proof...

Monday, April 23, 2007

Results from Somewhere

Understanding the Big Picture
Thinking and processing! That's what you love to do the most. Ideas and options are what you're always creating. Once something seems concrete, structured and complete, you have a way of coming up with a creative option that changes the whole and leads to a better building process.
Most of the time you are very uncanny about seeing and understanding the big picture. Yes, you're a holistic thinker that is always asking the question "How?" Everything, including the smallest detail, needs to be woven into a framework to answer your question of "How?" Not one step can be taken until you know how that one step fits into the whole. These are some of the many reasons why people refer to you as a visionary.
How You Think
Your thinking process is mostly intuitive and analogic. However, you do use facts and logic to back up your intuitive thought processing. When you weave these processes together, you're constantly challenging logical and scientific thought. You seem to stretch the facts to create a new theory or develop a synthetic way of tying different theories together. This optional way of thinking energizes your thought processes while at the same time focuses your energy on the facts in specific, yet different, ways.
Dynamic Creativity
Change, particularly in ideas, is never-ending for you. What you're enthusiastic about today may not be the focus of your energy in a week, a month or year. People that know you see a dynamic stream of consciousness which, given the right amount of time and people support, allows you to develop idealistic and artistic themes into living and creative realities. It makes no difference whether they are software programs, pieces of art, strategies for corporations or new, holistic developments for organic gardening.
There is no timeline or deadline for your accomplishments. They are never-ending because you will go back and transform them if they evolve into a different whole within you. That is why in school or at work you procrastinate until the last moment to finish a paper, an assignment, or a project. If you do the work early, you'll have to go back and change it completely because you'll see it in a different contextual whole at the time when it is due. So, why redo it?
Exploring Options
Every so often paradoxical thoughts attract you. While most people avoid them, you seem curious and comfortable with them. That's because, once again, your need for creative and optional thinking doesn't have to be tied consistently together with logical and factual data.
You're attracted to the unknown more than the known. You're drawn to what's unusual about something rather than what is ordinary about it. If it's strange or way out there, you'll want to know and read about it. You may take an idea from this and apply it in some practical way.
As a scientist or scholar, you have a bent towards the artistic side. What other people see as facts, you may see as shades of facts or possibilities of different facts. It's the development and the creation of new ideas and ways of looking at something that excites you. Your world is the world of possibilities and visions.
Thinking of the Future
You're always thinking about the future and you have an usual awareness as to what may happen. What you forecast is not always logical and sometimes makes many people uncomfortable. But if they've known you long enough, they use the awareness to be better prepared for upcoming situations or events.
How You Communicate with Others
People want you to share your thoughts with them. That's because your ideas and expressions usually give a different slant on a topic or on what's happening. Many times others look to you for your awareness or guidance about something.
You're an excellent communicator with individuals and small groups of three, no more than four people. You listen attentively to what people say, how they say it and what feelings are generated. When you give feedback, it is usually very sensitive and leads to further communication. You have an unusual awareness for what is happening to the person and others that are participating. It's almost like a sixth sense. Sometimes, people distance themselves from you because of this sensitivity and your feedback.
The same thing happens when you enter a room with people conversing. Without trying, you can sense the themes of the discussions and the feelings being expressed. As you join a group, people are drawn to you and have a need to express their thoughts and feelings in your presence. You seem to be a natural facilitator for communication on all levels.
Motivating Others
Every so often, you'll be inspired enough to positively motivate people to follow you as their leader. When you're in this action mode, you can speak before and lead large groups of people, even major organizations if you've had enough previous experience. Your words will flow fluidly and touch the hearts and minds of those listening. You'll have a dynamic energy that will focus people to successfully accomplish the goals and objectives set forth.
Yes, if the situation is right, you can go from this quiet, sensitive thinker and communicator to a charismatic, dynamic leader who is not afraid of risks or of being wrong. It's not as dramatic as being Clark Kent and turning into Superman. However, if some persons have never experienced this transition in you, they may be pleasantly surprised if they are on your team or a employee/member in your organization. However, you should know that, once the mission and goals have been accomplished, you're quite satisfied to return to being the thinker and sensitive communicator.Back to top
Communication Tips
People who have a predominantly Left-brain Abstractthinking style thrive on careful analysis of all pertinent factors before making any decisions. Their style is naturally systematic and detail-oriented, characterized by the pursuit of logic, predictability and discipline. They may appear distant and aloof at times, as they prefer to listen rather than talk. They tend to stick to the rules and stay within the confines of their orderly world.
When communicating with a Left-brain Abstract person, you are likely to experience the following characteristics:
You might find their passion for logical analysis to be ponderous or overly pedantic at times, but if you keep an open mind, their conclusions could be beneficial to you.
In situations where you must collaborate on a project or a plan, their tendency to stick to the rules can be limiting to your own creative visions. Present your optional ideas as logical alternatives worthy of consideration.
They may appear distant and aloof at times, as they prefer to listen rather than talk. Don't take this personally or assume they're arrogant. Remember that they're absorbing and processing information before they render an opinion.
They can be a valuable source of background or historical information, which you sometimes tend to overlook while you aim for the "big picture." Nevertheless, expect them to provide more details than you might care for.
People who have a predominantly Right-brain Concrete thinking style thrive on interacting with people and being the center of attention. They inspire others with their charm and warm personality. They can read other people very easily and use their intuitive skills to adapt effortlessly to changing situations. They are excellent at exciting and persuading others to follow their suggestions. They often speak without spending too much time thinking about what to say.
When communicating with a Right-brain Concrete person, you are likely to experience the following characteristics:
At times, you might find their ebullient need to be the center of attention to be overpowering or annoying.
Like therapists, they can sometimes encourage you to open up and confide with them about personal problems or concerns you have. You're usually okay with this, as long as they don't pry too deeply or push their solutions too strongly.
As much as you think before you speak, they think by speaking. They are excellent at exciting and persuading others to follow their suggestions.
Even if they don't take logic or factual data into account, they may come up with innovative or imaginative ideas that are worthy of your consideration.
Since you both like to come up with ideas, the verbal interaction can be both personally rewarding and productive. They may not share your visionary creativity, but they often have an intuitive sense of what is most suited for you.
They can sometimes seem manipulative in getting their way. While you might find their personal charm and charisma irresistible, don't allow yourself to be swayed in a direction that you know is not right for you.
People who have a predominantly Left-brain Concrete thinking style are action-oriented and thrive on challenge. As movers of people and organizations, they enforce rules, focus on goals, meet deadlines, and demand immediate action. They typically avoid getting bogged down in details and want to go directly to the bottom line. They prefer short and easy action-items or conclusions. They are decisive people who want to get things done quickly and efficiently.
When communicating with a Left-brain Concrete person, you are likely to experience the following characteristics:
You might find their style at times overbearing or in some cases, even intimidating. As a result, you're likely to interact with them only as much as absolutely necessary.
When it comes to solving problems, they view feelings or abstract concepts as intrusions that prevent them from reaching a firm conclusion. You'd be better off not allowing your feelings to become too much of an issue.
On the other hand, your feelings about certain situations are paramount to your comfort level, so don't be afraid to let them know how important that is to you.
There might be times that you will feel they are pushing too hard to get you to make a final decision. On the other hand, you might be struggling with all the options you're considering and could benefit from their decisive nature.
Don't be offended by their direct talk if it seems abrupt Ð they are goal-oriented people who know how to get things done.
When communicating with another Left-brain Concrete, you are likely to experience the following characteristics:
Like you, they tend to be visionary thinkers who look at the big picture and try to understand how things relate to each other.
They value creative, inspirational options as much as you do. They can usually provide interesting alternatives that would be worth your while to consider. At times, however, you might become a bit irritated with their tendency to go off on tangents when you're trying to focus on a particular issue of concern.
With the tendency you both have to procrastinate while exploring your options, one of you will need to refocus your energies on making a decision when the need to accomplish something arises.
You are both open-minded and feelings-oriented. Together, you are likely to create a relaxed, low-key atmosphere based on trust and good rapport.
Remember to be patient with their quiet, reflective nature; just like you, they may be thinking of other options that are more suitable for you or for themselves.
Ultimately, you both need to feel comfortable with how your decisions fit into your world.
Stresses
Using the Concluder style of learning can create stress for you. Yes, you can use it for short periods of time as a learning or production tool. But, the longer you use it, the more stressed you become. Your energy-focus, which accesses this particular process, may be blocked sometimes. It's as if you have a blind spot in this part of your repertoire. You just don't like to have to use it as a primary tool. The following is what may create stress for you if used for more than short time periods:
Always trying to be in control of or in charge of everything and everyone
Insisting on asking the question, "What is the objective of doing this?" and immediately taking action to accomplish it
Making sure everything you attempt is based on concrete, realistic and linear steps
Being concise about everything you think, learn or do ("less is more")
Demanding that efficiency be a constant motivator and goal
Being the highest achiever and one of the most successful people at all costs

Friday, April 20, 2007

I saw a silver sun



I saw a silver sun
And wanted it to touch everyone

I am sitting here kind of by my self. The spare time you wish for and its illusive. But that's okay.
Not exactly how I wanted to spend the night but all in all sometimes life sneaks up on you.

It was a pretty evening and all the neighbors were out and it was nice just to talk to them. I went for a walk with my Neighbor Lance. He is the most fantastic person .

I heard a ghost of your voice Long after you had left the room Those lyrics just came into my head or maybe the lyrics went to where my mind wandered.

Well Lance and I stood in a field and talked for a long time. I spent a lot of time listening...I think he needed that...My neighbor has cancer. You cant tell it. He is going through some of life's little crisis's (well large chaos) that I have I have been through on top of being not great of health.. And he is still a happy sunny person. The way i want to be under crisis. He's amazing..

The Moon once again loomed over us with Venus in training, another beautiful night...Back to the theme of things opposites do not attract. Lance and i are a lot of like and that why we get along.

And then there were the dogs. They just don't get along and they are so much alike, until you throw a ball. Now they have something in common.

In light of all
Darkest things
The fire glimmers
And the darkness sings

My point here is the here and now. I asked Lance about his concentration. He said...My mind wanders but I focus when I have too...My mind wanders also. Way too much...Lately toward a lot of good things....

I walked home and gave my neighbor on the other side of me a beer and set up a run for tomorrow. One of my credos has always been buy local. its also nice to stay in touch local. People move to certain neighbor hoods because the people living there share your same values. Well they stay there for that reason.





Venus Hangs Out With The Moon



The evening ended with the perfect sky as I walked out of the middle school and looked in the sky there was the perfect Maxie Moon (the rising crescent) in a rare alignment with Venus. Pure perfect unplanned but predicted genius. I looked at that and I decided the Universe right now is in perfect alignment. It really is...And i hated to admit to my self. I am really happy right now. I really am.. Like Mike Stipe twisting spoons seeing flowers in full bloom. Its a nice place to be. I write with full inspiration tonight with very little regard, well some with reader acceptance. Very inspired really.

I went to see Faust the musical tonight with Marina and Max. The DaVinci middle school does such a fine job with with everything they touch and tonight was no different. Kids these days are way better than we were as kids, and that where parenting comes in. Those with loving caring parents. I watched the play tonight and seriously tears came to my eyes, even after the show watching some proud parents and teachers. I really have no grasp of what makes the human voice so beautiful, but I know when I hear one. Amazing Grace is possibly one of the prettiest songs on the planet.

And of course on the way home I get back to sub-reality. The driver side window on my car has been broken for a while and predictably it just stops working. It left me driving home with the window open during a driving rain storm just five days ago I decided never to to use it again. But, today I drove into the car wash on the way home from the play and stupidly pull down the window at the car wash. And then I pull into the car wash with water torrents running amok remembering my driver side window may not work. I had to put the windo down to put money in the machine. I relate the story back to the kids and they laugh like crazy and somewhere out of the sparklejetstream the window decides to work. Realistically I should have drowned in the car or taken an earlier shower.. I did neither.

But back when watching the musical I came to a very steadfast conclusion or maybe it was an epiphony as to why everything sparkles just quite right.